few days ago, she [LJ] blasted me in msn. The same night, i decided to blog abt my fav topic. This blog is abt a gal that ws once even more special+mysterious to me.
16/5/08, a friend press call button to her while i finished having lunch at 6pm+.
So i thought maybe i just talked to her. But i hanged up in seconds. Later i call her again at 7+, upon finding out she ws free, i asked her out, though the original plan was to wait till SUN/ MON (mon will be Wesak).
So i rushed home, then arrange a car, we continue to talk on the tel, causing a bit of waste of time. By the time i reach puchong & went to pee, LJ called while i ws peeing [she refused to believe i m in the toilet n insisted that i was at home], Mr Monica, ie kio, ws taking his slow bath, i've to ask his wife to remove the car so that the corolla could come out. But something slowed her down [i called LJ again, she said i ws not serious abt things w her & is always late], then when she moved it out, Monica was done w his bath &came out. Time ws further delayed when kio ws waiting for his wife to come back, not knowing that wife has taken his eldest son for a short ride.
Anyway, he checked the black oil. Once done, i rushed but then slowed down, heading to Putra heights/PH from bdr kinrara, & called LJ. LJ said she lost the mood, repeating that m always late & not serious, while saying that his D'sara friend could hv arrived in 30m & it took me more than45min. I quickly apologized.
The disgrace & pain were incredible. As i exit puchong toll to PH, i told myself "remember this insult, dont let it happen again. It happened cuz i dont hv a better car, and the 1 i hv aint working. That ws a result of a failed life. And i will not bow to pressure to buy another car hastily while knowing more models wil be launched soon".
I finally reached, moment b4 i reached [near PH shell], she told me she ws in the mood again. She wore a black shirt & a mini skirt jeans, which i immediately advised against, esp. at night, she concurred. As we heads to USJ/SJ, she asked if i've borrowed the car [perhaps only to realize i've went thru some troubles]. I said to LJ she didnt know it wsnt easy to come out w her cuz of car problem, she said "do u think i nv tot of this".
As we hit Summit traffic light, i pointed to the left, telling her a day earlier i told myself i cant be riding the same bike passing by the same route [ cuz staying at the same place], doin the same thing at abt the same hours. I told her
that i started a blog & i wrote i voted for myself [moto: vote for change we believe in possible], she looked happier, then she began to apologized if she hurt my feeling in the msn. I said it ws ok, all were correct except the part when she blasted me that i complained abt every1. I said i've xpected her to be smarter & thus more understanding & dont comment if she doesnt know, and that she could hv been the final person to understand me, but it ws disappointing that i was blasted like that.
It was indeed very saddening as certain scenes start to play in my brain. Tears were abt to drop & she tried to console me.
Anyway, we finally went to ss15 to eat steak at the corner that max liked. Terrible choice as i should hv picked a place i've never been. LJ said she last came during her univ time. Anyway, we move spot to inside cuz of aircon. Everything went on well with good conversation, i kept telling her to remember today well, and the upcoming wesak.
[as i reach this line, a buyer's sms to 016 distracted me. LJ is stil karaoking w uni mate & unreachable at 019 while didnt bring her 012. Terrible repetition of her past mistakes. The last time this happened, i made 38calls & 1 of the sms i sent to 019 that was left in car, contained WTF, blinded by all these, it built her bargaining chip & she shrugged off her such terrible negligence twd her own safety].
The chat was long, we talk abt her hp gift to her mum, did i call my ex often/ stil see her often, if i trust her if she told me she has bf, etc. Cant recall now why we talked till 12am, the bangla practically waited for me to b4 drag the shutter to close shop. We snapped pic for each other, i snapped a pic of me holding her hand w a dolphin ring.
As usual, she is very photegenic & really is good at posting good posture, Anyway, as i was abt to head to sunway, i asked if she wanted to see where i onced lived. As soon as i cancel that plan she wanted me to do so. I brought her to ss14, showing that corner house that i wanted to buy once. We talked as if we will get married. She smiled as we both noted this. I headed to 36, ss14/3c, then to ss17/3b trying to see if the bank auction is there but we dont know which 1, after i showing her the ss17 house i stayed, went to 2nd aunt home, strolled in ss19 bangalow area. She participated in the talk, telling me sometimes in the older days she also did that.
We went to usj 3 uncle house, she started to search for my n73 songs.
Then she noticed all the names that i've used on her such as : D T__ L__ J__, D gal i peruse (which was read by her as pre-use. LoL), Gal who doesnt luv Vin, Disappointing, Ideal & reality differs, wife802532xx. I said if she ever thought who those ppl were, she said no as i once told her 019 ws for us only. I said i kept many gfs no there & suggested her to call wife_, b4 her hp ranged, i saw her smiling happily.
Trust me, i didnt plan this. But it ws a good accidental discovery to her , and to me too.
Then, i show her usj 3a to 3d, telling her her bro should hv opted there over PH.
Then I dropped by usj2 house to go to loo, delaying original plan to go to ss12 [ which ws later discarded].
This is the fun part, she waited obediently at the living room [i've expected her to check the kitchen, upstairs, etc]. But she did insist to see my room which i rejected.
Anyway, i brought her TF for samsung z370, card reader, etc, after failed to get celcom to do a 3G setting on spot, etc.
She sat on the sofa, i sat on the poof, i started the conversation by asking if she is aware that goin home w a guy imply that she is ready to hv xxx, she clarified she only go to houses of those she knew well but not frequent. Stil i think it is wrong.
Again i commented abt her mini skirt. Again she didnt fight, that was very good.
I held her palm as i listen to her [somehow she just allowed it],i listened
to her answering me abt her 3exes, how they knew each other, for how long, when, why separated. I heard her quiet hingusan as she touched on the 2nd ex but she denied she ws sad. I ws not very convinced. I ws silently happy as she finally ws ready to share her stories.
Then i showed her in action the meaning of beating around bushing & quoting Jeff hon Lion dance. I start to show her how once try to study a house / person outside a gate, jumping as if once is in the boxing bout, and how lion dance took a long time dancing b4 reaching for the vegi. She laughed lovingly, saying it was funny, hilarious cute action from me [she later mentioned it twice, once on same night, and nex morning, a shame that it was not captured on video].
then i began to show her some old pics, resume, univ certs, OSU medallion which i gave 2her but she wanted me to keep, to which i said 1 day she wil keep for me when she became half owner of our home [note: home and house differs in meaning]. She noticed that i realy went thru SRP instead of PMR. And she said her results trend was the reverse of mine & her hyperactive profile made her highly marketable. That time, i sat on her right. It felt really cool. Sometime u forgot that she ws the same gal that terminated u fr her candidacy list so soon [another unforgettable event, another 'insult'].
We then start to snaps some pics, i tried not to take advantage [kissing, hugging, sitting on my lap]. But i moved very close head to head & put my hand on her shoulders. Somehow, she continued to surprise me by saying she is comfortable.
But i did kiss her hair 3-4 times [the next day she did her hair treatment so that it feels better the next time i touch it. Wow, so sweet indeed. See, another good thing abt her though i want to tell her i rather she took the time to sleep more]. She didnt or rather i din observe her reaction.
She ws really nice, cooperative that midnights, b4 i drove her home, i change my shirt, and asked if can give me a hug, i did it twice. Her twin peak touched me. I talked abt it but she said it ws ok wo. As we drove home, i hold her hand fr usj 2 til PH. Along the way we adjust the position & let air con blows to cool it down. But she held on to it thru the entire journey, as said, she continued to surprise me. It ws very soothing. Sometimes i wonder if it ws correct to plan to distant myself away fr her, after Wesak, even though for temporarily.
Anyway at giant traffic light, she said she sweat little cuz of eating 2much salty food which will fail the kidney. I notice that she ws fatter, told her earlier. Still, in the pic taken at steak house, she looks great.
Finally we reached her house, i turned off the engine, she went it but soon called me cuz i didnt start the car & leave. Though dark, it's good 2c her at the door talkin2 u in tel. It was a wonderful night, could hv been better if i didnt think so much abt leaving her.
In 1 of the call nex morning/ same night, she cited 1 main reason for her not falling in love w me is cuz of job. So vinext, remember that, and u must be a fund manager, a good 1,no, a great 1. After all, that is what i m good at or what i knew.
ok now it is NOW SUN 3.23am GMT+8, stil no reply from her, this is what i dont like.
Earlier i xplain & told her not to eat crab for dinner but she said it ws her favourite, ireally regretted telling her. NOW i build her karma. I felt terrible. Damn, i vowed not to do that mistake again. ok i m pausing to call her now.
4.35am, she called a while ago saying she cant find z370 w 019 in her car, this is bad,gtg, edit nex time
